This essay was written ten days before Beverly Hibbett, former wife of thirty eight years and best friend, died. I think that difficult time brought into clear focus this theme that had been at work in me for more than twenty five years. *
Something is seeking expression in me regarding God, meaning and life. I'm sure this has come to focus as a result of the suffering that I see Bev experiencing along with my family and me. These ideas were first stirred in me during the 'vision like' experiences I had beginning in August of 1985. I have recently become more aware that there has been a dialogue regarding these ideas from early Christian writers and especially later ones including Meister Eckhart(1260- 1327) and Jacob Boehme(1575-1624). Such topics have been kept alive in the part of Christianity always called mysticism. Paul Tillich once explained for modern readers this does not refer to some 'foggy idea of God' but to the concept of God being an immediate, immanent and natural experience of the human mind and spirit.
Something is seeking expression in me regarding God, meaning and life. I'm sure this has come to focus as a result of the suffering that I see Bev experiencing along with my family and me. These ideas were first stirred in me during the 'vision like' experiences I had beginning in August of 1985. I have recently become more aware that there has been a dialogue regarding these ideas from early Christian writers and especially later ones including Meister Eckhart(1260- 1327) and Jacob Boehme(1575-1624). Such topics have been kept alive in the part of Christianity always called mysticism. Paul Tillich once explained for modern readers this does not refer to some 'foggy idea of God' but to the concept of God being an immediate, immanent and natural experience of the human mind and spirit.
It has to do with a very ancient idea and myth that there is a flaw, a very real personality and moral problem within the eternal God Self. And creation was motivated in part because of a barely God-conscious awareness that the problem within God could not be solved within God's Self outside of time. The solution of it could only be in the life, mind and psyche of created human beings. There was something imperfect, immoral in God that could only become conscious first in the human and then in God , providing a way to eventually bring a solution to the original problem. So only through the genuine and legitimate cooperative suffering of humans and God in creation can the needed solution be worked out. Jesus is a myth(in that word's rich classical and ancient meaning) and symbol of such conscious human suffering happening and a prediction of what was going to and must happen on a broad human scale. Present conscious psychological and physical suffering is the continued actual working out of that solution. Many humans have and are experiencing that suffering quite consciously in many ways. The nature of such psychological suffering can rightly be described as the 'suffering of opposites' and involves consistently holding in one's mind the value of both sides of opposite issues and situations rather than casting one aside in an attempt to relieve the suffering of maintaining both. Such real experience maintained in the human conscious mind generates a deep and barely bearable 'suffering of opposites'. This is supremely depicted in the consciously accepted suffering of Christ, the cross being the primary symbol we have inherited. Every human experiences this in various and significant ways in life, usually regarding family, companionship, health, work and community life and religion. The more personal and close and love based the relationships involved are the more legitimate and conscious and redeeming, for both human and God, such suffering is. Each human is called upon to experience such suffering. Collectively, human war is the ultimate reflection of this suffering of both God and Human. But such suffering is experienced in a multitude of ways both individually and collectively.
The Collective Unconscious, which is essentially the source of the expression of God to human beings, becoming manifested in the human psyche is what causes the personal religious experience and any group or community religion to happen in history. This is a universal experience in all human beings. Humans have remained, for the most part , unconscious of an understanding of this kind of source of their strong religious and religious-like convictions. It is likely functioning when we have very strong ultimate beliefs of 'how things are' about any part of life and conscious reality. In this sense I believe every human is religious and it comes from the same source for us all. The cruel flaw of such conviction of heart happening is that each religion, and often each individual, is 'possessed' by the deep belief that his/hers is the only true revelation and voice of God. Of course it is not. Each such religious experience is one of many but each often comes, or is later interpreted, as a 'one and only' conviction. This is a key and dangerous feature of how humans come to suffer the problem that was originally in Divinity from before creation.
Job And Overwhelming Yahweh ... William Blake 1804 |
So God is the source of the problem and the necessary responsible beginning of the solution. God and humans through cooperative suffering in time is the nature and fabric of the solution. God is having to stand against God and does it through humans which is the experience of redemptive conscious suffering for both. This understanding makes much sense of personal/ collective physical and psychological suffering. To become more deeply religious then means becoming through suffering, in a sense, less religious. To become more like God is to become less like God, or God as we initially understood God to be.
And so I suffer. And so you suffer. And so our children suffer. And so the world suffers. God and humanity suffer together. The 'creation groans' as Paul wrote. This is how I understand the suffering I see and do in my work as chaplain and in my personal life. ( I and my family are strongly experiencing such suffering now in Bev's dying experience.) Only if enough humans become conscious of such psychological realities, religious myths about God and God's expressions in each of us, is there a significantly humane future for humanity. Without this moral consciousness the religious impulse in humans will become the cause of humanity unconsciously destroying itself according to such myths as the Christian Armageddon. Another present and practical implication regards our national situation. This same corrupted religious force described above attaches itself to strong collective political realities, to 'isms' and 'parties.' It has the same effect there but is not seen as a religious factor anymore, which makes it all the more dangerous. Just as each religion at first sees itself as the only true one and sees as its primary duty to change the others or destroy them, so now there is a significant part of the American political psyche that is very willing to use military power to change the world to its view or else destroy dissenters. This can be seen working out before our very eyes. Will the kind of religious and political consciousness described above arrive in time with enough support?
The God borne capacity to occasionally transcend such redeeming suffering while experiencing it has always been and can only be the experience of human/divine love. Such a love is not only the unconditional valuing of the 'other' but it also includes en-joying , liking and delighting in the unique reality of the other as a welcomed part of creation. It is only love realized in the human psyche that leads one to be capable of realizing heart felt compassion and empathy for us all. This alone disengages the dangerous trigger of religious impulse. And only such love can lead one to being truly compassionate and empathic toward God as well...and to being proud of us all and to being proud of God, from which all has come. Each of us is indebted to all humans who have consciously suffered and to the God who became also willing to suffer and to humble Itself to redeem and to be redeemed by and with its own marvelous human creation. Such love, I see, is the reality that God has truly wrought as my highest experience of suffering, and sometimes transcendence of suffering, in order to redeem myself and to redeem God. And for God to redeem God and for God to redeem me. It is love that in the end is the meaning of the grace of God. We can hope to simply at some significant level, by Sacred grace, become conscious of this ultimate Sacred mythic truth. I suspect it is a kind of truth that can be universally experienced by humans. I think it holds out a potentially good future for humankind. I can imagine no other way that assures more. Beverly is one precious blessing and amazing expression of God in my life. May God's blessings be with us all. Jim
*Acknowledgment: I have been directly and immensely helped in finding the language for this essay by John P. Dourley's book Paul Tillich, Carl Jung and the Recovery of Religion.
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